Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Me Time

Between being sick over the Holidays and then working extra hard to get caught up and to try and meet my goals for January, I've suddenly become aware of the fact that I feel like crap.
I've been eating poorly, drinking just an eensy, weensy, wee bit too much and exercising not at all.

And I can feel it.

I have no energy, crash at 8:00 every night and have to struggle to stay awake and my skin looks terrible. My back aches, my knees hurt and I seem to have a constant headache.

Do any of you ever get this way?
Like you spend all of your time taking care of everyone else and no time at all looking after you?

Well, I'm tired of it. I'm old enough to know better but I've gotten in a rut. Run the kids around, help with homework, pay bills, clean house, shop, cook, clean, yard work, volunteer work, plan parties, do laundry and fix every little issue that lands at the front door. Plus try to run a business. It's too much.

Actually, it's just enough. I just need to take some time to prioritize. I need to remember that when the air masks drop, I need to put mine on first, then everybody else's.

So I made a deal with myself and I have certain things that I have to do, every day. I wrote them down in list form, so I'll have to abide by it. I'm that anal. If I write it down, I have to do it.
  1. I have to work out every morning. I'm not allowed to turn the kiln on until I get in at least 1 hour.
  2. I'm keeping a calender/chart of my progress. I have to write down my exercise every day.
  3. I have to do one thing, just for myself, every day. It can be something as simple as sitting down in the middle of the day to read a magazine or as complicated as getting a manicure. Not that I would ever get a manicure. Very shabby nails...very shabby.
  4. I also have to write that down on my calender.
  5. I have to set more realistic goals. I can't accomplish everything in one day or even one month.
  6. I have to ask for and expect more help from my husband. My kids are fine. They have plenty of chores and they are straight A students with enough to worry about. Besides, half the time it's such a pain in the ass to get them to do anything, I'd rather just let it go.

That's it. There are no weight loss goals only health and well-being priorities to be managed. It's all about me. If I feel like eating a damn cupcake, I'll do it an nobody's making me feel bad about it.

I'll let you know how it's working out.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Dropping Acid

I scored a Treasury on Etsy this morning and I think it turned out pretty well. It's my goal to go FP on Etsy and take a bunch of fabulous creations along.
So come check it out, click and comment on these wonderful chartreuse (acid) green items and give yourself a pop of color on a grey, dingy day.

http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list.php?room_id=32973

Friday, January 9, 2009

It's about time!

Well, after a way too long break, I've finally got some new things available, both on eBay and on Etsy. I actually have a really pretty set that was supposed to go up on eBay last night but, for some reason, didn't post. I'm going to show you anyway.

On eBay:
~Internalize~


~Aphrodite~


~Island Hopping~


On Etsy:

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Lend a hand

Warning: Long, rambling post about social conscience. With no pictures.

Over the recent holiday break, I had a lot of time to think about things. I got really sick and didn't have time to do some of the things I'd planned, but my mind was working fine.

I thought about the fact that, even as we struggle as a nation to find our footing, still we squander so much of what we have. If times are so hard, why are we still spending millions on bottled water instead of drinking tap water or investing $20 in a filter pitcher? Why are we still watching frantically for the price of flat screens and Blue Ray to drop? Why is obesity such a huge problem even as the price of food skyrockets?

These are general issues.

In specific, I worry about my children. I don't think they have any real sense of social conscience. I completely admit that that's the fault of their parents. We've been lax and irresponsible.

I grew up - though not dirt poor by any stretch of the imagination - certainly without any extras. I remember when I first made the cheer leading squad and there was a distinct possibility that I wouldn't get to participate due to the cost of the uniform. My father was a factory worker, working nights my entire childhood because of the extra money that shift paid. There was forever a sense of being on the edge. As a result, I give my kids too much. I want them to have a sense of security that was a sometimes lacking in my own childhood. I've always wanted them never to feel that kind of pressure and I've probably done it in the wrong ways.

On the flip side, my husband grew up in comparative privilege. His father was an high level executive with a large, multi-national company. He grew up on the golf course. He had great clothes, nice cars, a swimming pool and came home from school to a gated community every day. Paying for college was never a concern. He gives our kids too much because, well, he had those things when he was a kid and maybe doesn't see the harm.

But I am starting to.

I recently read an article about a woman who wanted to teach her kids about being aware of how lucky they are just to have food, shelter, clothing. School supplies, for crying out loud! So once a week, she and her children make nutritious brown bag meals and then take them downtown where the homeless population is concentrated and hand them out to anyone who wants one. They don't do this as a project for school or to earn community service credit for college applications. They do it because it's benefits everyone involved.

This seemed like such a simple way to help that I thought, "Hey, why not us, too?"

Last year the homeless population in Orlando was estimated at approximately 10,000 people -2400 of them children. That number is expected to dramatically increase in the next year due to the collapse of the real estate boom in our area. Thousands have lost their jobs as a result of that incident alone. Not to mention all those who are affected by the dramatic downturn in the travel and hospitality industries that fuel our local economy. We're talking about entire families living in shelters because the parents lost their jobs.

That could be us.

If my husband were still the small, independent electrical contractor that he was a few years ago, we wouldn't have our home today. His business probably would have been wiped out along with thousands of others across the area. He ran into one of his biggest former clients the other day. Two years ago, the guy was building 4,000 square foot custom homes. Today, he's building skateboard ramps for the neighbor kids to earn a little cash. He hasn't built a house in six months.

That's scary.

I already volunteer at the kid's school as much as I can, but I really want something for the kids to participate in, something that puts them in touch with another side of life. So, I set out on a full-on volunteer effort for the entire family. We've decided that my daughter and I will volunteer at the Orlando Coalition for the Homeless. They have a Women's Shelter as well, where they always need help with the children and organizing activities. Connor does community service work for his Scout pack already, but he can help with donation drives and supplies sorting, too. They need so much, from time to supplies, that there's something for everyone. Robert already volunteers for local youth sports, and that's about all the time he has.

And, because we're all animal lovers, we'll be continuing to donate time and supplies to the local SPCA, which I have done for years. Next year, Anna will be old enough to volunteer on-site and she's really looking forward to that.

These are relatively small things but I hope they'll help all of us. It can't hurt, that's for sure. If anyone local is interested in helping, I've included the links for these organizations. If you're not local, maybe you could find someone in your own area that could use a helping hand.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Uhhrggah...cough...cough..

Just wanted to come in and wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holiday season. I'm sick. Like, 'flat on my back, coughing up unrecognizable things, dizzy and have completely lost my voice' sick. I've been this way for over a week.

I still managed to fill a couple of orders but that was it. One day, I had a small organic bead set and a set of cupcakes that were custom ordered that I needed to get filled. I was able to make everything except for one measly little Black Forest cupcake. I was so sick that, even knowing I was going to have to wait until the next day, fire up the kiln all over again for ONE bead, I still just couldn't make myself stand there any longer. I absolutely, positively couldn't make that cupcake. F*****ing cupcake!

On that note, I leave you with a thought:

No matter what your religion or lack thereof, this is a special time of year, a spiritual time. Enjoy it, embrace it, appreciate what you have and try not to covet what you don't. Don't allow yourself to be ground down and 'Scrooged' by the expense, the hassle, the crowds, the pressure. Spread your joy through gifts of love, not just empty material items and it's true - that old cliche' - you'll be rewarded 1,000-fold for your efforts. That, I think, is Karma which may not exactly be a Christmas philosophy, but it works.
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